THE X-MAS GIFT   
  Written by Karen Jobim
  SPOILERS: After "How ghosts stole X-MAS"
  Category: Free (MSR)
  Enjoy!!!!!

  

  Scully's Mother Place
   Around 2 a. m.

   Scully gets back to her mother's house a little too late 
to dinner, almost 
2 in the morning and find her sleeping on the couch. The 
noise of the door 
awake her.
   "Dana, where have you been? We waited for you, I tried to 
call you weren't 
at home neither answer your cellphone ..."

   "Mom, why don't you go to the bed?"

   "Your brother said you're probably with Fox, of course  he 
didn't say it 
this way."

   "I don't give a damn to what Bill thinks, it's not his 
life !" Saying this 
she sat on the couch and looked away.

   "Calm down, honey. What happened?" She saw her closed her 
eyes as she was 
taking a deep breath "Oh Dana. I know you don't like to talk 
with me and I 
know after you....we lost Melissa you've been lonely, you 
don't have someone 
to talk to about some subjects but I'm your mother, Dana! 
Open yourself up to 
me I know you need to do it, I see and feel it. Please, let 
me in." She 
realized that her mother was seating right in front of her, 
holding her hand.

   "Oh mom." She pulled her hand and placed both at her own 
face after a while 
she looked again to her mother " I wouldn't know how to 
begin, maybe my own 
vision of facts seems totally out of sanity for you and Bill 
but it's my 
life."

   "Dana, whatever is your life or your choices I'll never 
object myself  
'cause you're the only one who can decide what is the best to 
do with your 
life. I'll always support you, I'm here with you so, talk to 
me."

   "But..."

   "No but,. . . and why don't you start from the very 
beginning?"

    She knew the meaning of this once she talk about it she 
will suffer 'cause 
it was hurting her every day of her life but she need to put 
it out. She has 
to do it. She sighs.

   "Ok.. I remember it was a X-MAS night just like today. I 
was preparing 
myself to go to Washington to study at the FBI Academy and 
right here on this 
couch Melissa asked me if I was excited. I said yes but I was 
worried what Dad 
would think ? I was leaving an excellent career in Medicine 
to become a 
Federal Agent and it seemed right for me but I still didn't 
know if I was 
making the right choice, ok, I knew it was what I want, my 
heart told that, it 
was my head, my rationalism that still questioning my 
decision. And Melissa 
told me "it's your life, Dana not them, whatever you do I'll 
be here for you 
and you can count on me. You're na amazing strong woman, Dana 
Scully. And you 
know that." I never forgot these words."

"And she was right saying it to you."

"After I went to the Academy I knew lots of people and I 
discovered that 
become na agent was going to be more difficult that I 
thought, just like in 
Medicine school I took the challenge and i won again. I 
proved to everybody 
and to myself that I'm  a strong intelligent woman and 
everything seemed right 
in my life, I was teaching at the Academy, had dates once in 
a while and 
suddenly. . . it changed, he changed it."

"Yeah, it definitely changed your life, Fox and the X-files."

"I remember the first time I went to his office in the 
basement: "Agent 
Mulder, I'm Dana Scully. I was assign to work with you in the 
X-files." He 
barely looked at me and when he asked me if I believe in 
extraterrestrial life 
I knew it would be another challenger to me but I wouldn't 
imagine it would be 
the biggest one. I was so used to have science right there to 
support me and 
that first case in Oregon I fricked out so much that * don't 
say it Dana stop 
it's enough, don't say it* I went to his room only with my 
robe covering my 
pants and bra and asked him to look at my back I could feel 
he was examining 
every inch of my body and he smelt it I got that besides my 
fear and I hugged 
him terrified. Then, I spent the night at his room as he told 
me the story of 
his life. That moment I knew I had to be stronger than ever 
and I started to 
build walls around me, to protect myself. At the beginning, 
it was so hard to 
not observe him, especially when he held my hand or the lower 
back of mine 
guiding me on the hallway but I got used to. Mom, you're 
tired let's sleep I'm 
just bothering you."

"Dana, you're not talking to Mulder, you're trying to 
runaway. Ok, we need to 
sleep and tomorrow we'll continue it, right?" She nodded.
    
"Mom? Thanks." She smiled and kissed her daughter "Good 
night, sweet "


X-MAS Day 
9 a. m.

"Good morning, sis! Where have you been? Working on X-MAS eve 
?" I want to 
kill him.

"Bill, don't bother your sister. Sit down and have some 
breakfast."

"All right."

Tara  was just sitting on the table when they heard a baby 
cry 

"No, Tara let me get him." I said and went to the baby's room 
I couldn't stay 
on that table.

"Hi, Matthew, hi sweetie it's aunt Dana." She put the baby on 
her lap and 
started to play with his toes. She was so interested on the 
baby that she 
didn't noticed her mother stand on the door watching her. 
Until. . . .

"Dana, can we continue that conversation ?"

"Look, it's grandma sweetie!"

"Dana!?" as she said it she took the baby and put him on the 
cradle.

"Mom, do we have to?"

"Of course. You're not tell me yet why you look so sad."

"I'm not sad."

"Yes, you are. I see it in your eyes. Come on, let's go to 
the office."

"Ok." * What can I do?*


At the office. . . .


"Well, where did we stop? Oh, yeah. Your walls."

"Mom, I'm telling you the story of my life, things I never 
told anyone even 
Missy. If  you  ... it's so hard – she sighs

"Darling, I know it's difficult to you, it hurts but you have 
to let it out." 
She squeezed her hand.

"If  you get tired, please tell me, ok?" she nodded.

"I knew my work was dangerous but be abducted and don't 
remember anything, it 
was strange but life goes on until that April when Mulder 
received that tape 
that cost his father's life, Melissa's and almost me and his. 
Missy died for 
me there in that hospital he told me both lost someone and it 
maybe had to be 
fate that put us together to find the truth. In someway I 
knew he likes me but 
as a friend, as his partner and when my cancer got to the 
blood he put his 
career and his life in danger to find a way to save me  even 
then I knew it 
was partnership, he felt guilty, it was friendship because of 
what we've been 
through and..." She was trying to suppress the tears on her 
eyes.

"Dana, I'm sorry but when I went to the hospital and he was 
sitting on your 
bed holding your hand looking at you so tenderly, I could 
feel the love there. 
You're lying to me and to yourself saying it's just 
friendship."

At that moment, she couldn't stand "No, Mom" she murmured. 

"Dana anyone that saw the scene would tell you the same. 
Don't you see? Think 
and tell me how many times he left his search to save you?"

"He didn't leave his search for Samantha or the truth because 
of me, Mom. Some 
situations came along the way, people trying to kill him, 
something. . ."

"Yes, YOU came on the way. He found out a way to cure your 
cancer, to avoid it 
to spread, he saved you and I don't know how many times but 
he made his 
choices too." 

"So, tell me Mom, if he loves like you said why he never told 
me ? Why the 
only time he seemed to take the moment and was supposing to 
kiss me that 
fucking bee stung me? And why didn't we continue from where 
we stopped after 
came back from Antartida?" She was screaming to control her 
cry and her angry. 
She knew she couldn't tell it to her mother but she was too 
upset to noticed 
what she was really saying. 

"What are you saying? He was supposed to kiss you? What 
...!?"

She took a deep breath and well it's done, she nodded :

"Last year, when we were in Dallas and found out a conspiracy 
that once again 
almost cost our careers and after I left an hearing on which 
I was transferred 
to Salt Lake City I went to his apartment to tell him I was 
quitting in 
person, of course I had to see him one last time . He said to 
me I couldn't 
and I started to argue with him 'cause otherwise he'll 
probably convince me. I 
told him to remember why I went to work with him, to 
disbelief his work, to 
shut him down and he said I saved him and that he didn't want 
to do this all 
alone and he's been even known if he could and... she 
swallowed, and I 
couldn't hold my tears no more and I kissed his forehead and 
got my head in 
his chest, suddenly he pushed me away, grabbed my face on his 
hands and our 
mouths were almost there when it stung me. After that, I 
started to lose my 
senses and he went to Antartida to save me one more time but 
when I got better 
he never talked about it, it seems just like na illusion to 
us." Saying this, 
after that moment she whispered "Oh, Mom" and she went in to 
her mother's arms 
and cried, "Oh Dana" she was crying like a baby. Her mother 
kissed her 
forehead and brushed the hair from her eyes. Still sobbing 
she asked while a 
hundred tears rolled down to her cheeks 

" What's wrong with me? I'm going crazy and maybe one day I 
couldn't stand it. 
I've been having jealous crises about him, Diana and every 
woman who gets on 
his way."

"Nothing is wrong with you. You love a wonderful and 
complicated man and he 
loves you too. You are both intelligent, beautiful and 
individualist people. 
One of you will have to take the chance or you'll stay like 
this forever or 
until you can deal with it and I guess it won't be so long 
anymore. By the 
way, you were with him yesterday, weren't you?"

"Yes.He called me to spy na old mansion in Maryland. He told 
me a story about 
two lovers that killed each other swearing eternal love and 
our imagination 
almost got us killed. The ghost woman told me  my only joy in 
life is to prove 
he's wrong. I couldn't get here without know why we wanted me 
there with him. 
He said it was vanity and daffodil of his and I said maybe i 
wanted to be 
there with him. And I guess he didn't get the real meaning of 
that and he gave 
me a gift and I did it too. He was wonderful, just like a 
little boy opening 
that simple gift ."She was smiling remembered the scene. 

"What did he give to you?"

"A blouse, well he definitely knows me. It's beautiful just 
the way I like."

"Dana I need to know something, you accept him as he is and 
you're ready to do 
anything to him and tell him exactly how you feel?" saying 
that she pushed her 
away forcing her to look directly in her eyes.

"I love that man and if it has to be me to take the chance I 
will. I'll do 
anything to be with him, to kiss him, he is the ONE, I know 
it for almost six 
years."

"Ok, I believe you and I know wherever Missy is, she's happy 
to see you go on 
with your life and following your heart. I guess that's the 
only reason you 
and Fox aren't together. You two think too much. Let the 
emotion guides you."

"And now?" she asked puzzled to her mom.

"Well, you weren't here to get your presents so...come here." 
She got up to 
the couch still holding Dana's hand leading her to the living 
room.

" Oh I got you Margareth, you're using the gifts to cheer up 
your little 
daughter. It's not fare."

"Here, that's mine. But, what I'm not sure is if what I'm 
going to tell you 
now will make any sense to you. . ."

"What are you telling me?" 

As she sighs, she started to talk: 

"Yesterday Fox came here before you and I told him to wait 
for you but he said 
he was in a hurry 'cause he promised his mother to spend X-
MAS with her, so he 
just stepped by to leave a gift for you, he didn't have the 
opportunity to 
give it to you in person so he asked me to give it to you."

"I don't understand, he already gave me and why. . ." she 
didn't  finish the 
sentence.

"After what you told me, neither do I darling " she gave to 
Dana a box.

She slowly opened the present and the box as well. " What 
could it be . .. a 
photo frame." She looked at the picture she was smiling and 
thought where did 
he find it? And suddenly she noticed it wasn't a photo frame, 
it was a kind of 
book, a diary maybe. She took it out of the box and started 
to exam it. It was 
a wonderful book with lots of pages as she browsed it she 
noticed it was 
written by hand. She decided to read it alone in the office 
'cause whatever it 
can be  she didn't know how to react to it. Her mother was 
staring at her.

"Mom do you know something about it and you're not telling 
me?"

"No Dana. I don't have any idea of what it could be."

"Ok. I'm going to the office to try to find out what it's all 
about." And she 
went to the office.

Oh, my God! What are you trying to telling me, Mulder? She 
opened the book and 
in the first page she read:

"After my sister disappears, my life changed. I decided to 
search for the 
truth. On the FBI, I discovered the X-files and somehow I 
knew that my answers 
were there . Disbelieved for my partners, I started to work 
alone and I got a 
nickname, they call me Spooky, spooky Mulder whom sister was 
taken by little 
"green" man, a loser. But I got used to it and continued to 
conducted my life 
until that day . . . yeah, it was na ordinary day of 
September when a 
hurricane came to me . She was na excellent professional, of 
course I did my 
research but I was not prepared to who she really was. And 
that day when she 
entered to my office, she changed my life. Hope it is the 
plausible scientific 
evidence you need to believe in all you experienced through 
those years. " 

"This diary is dedicated to my faithful partner, my truly 
friend, my beloved : 
Dana K. Scully " and on the bottom "All my love to you, Fox 
Mulder."

She couldn't believe it, she was totally touched by his 
words, she had no 
action. Her eyes were filled of tears and she realized she 
wasn't breathing. 
She turned the page as her heart was jumping like hell 'cause 
everything she 
need to know could be there on these pages. During three long 
hours she read 
every page of that diary and between the pages she sighed, 
whispered "Oh my 
Gosh" a hundred times as well his name. When she got in the 
chapter, yes he 
divided it by chapters, where he described what he felt when 
she was dying in 
the hospital, she cried. She let her emotion and her feelings 
surrounded her 
life, she hadn't the control anymore and amazing for the 
first time she didn't 
want to. After the chapter where he talked about his 
experience on the Bermuda 
Triangle, it was over,  finished without na epilogue. Then  
she saw na envelop 
on the last page. She opened it slowly afraid of what she 
would find inside. 
It had a piece of paper like the rest of the book and it 
said: "Everything in 
life has na end, maybe this too but I don't know. Seems, just 
like everything 
in my life, this is another X-file and as natural it won't 
have a scientific 
explanation,  neither a paranormal. Its solution is based on 
the sentimental 
field. There's only one word to explain it: Love. This could 
be the answers I 
wish to find, maybe it is but doesn't matter anymore. I know 
exactly what I 
did, I exposed myself and there's no turning back, it's done. 
I'm sure I made 
the right choice, I listened to my heard. Perhaps, that day 
in the hospital 
when I said "I LOVE YOU" I was misunderstood but, you know 
what? Nobody says 
these words without know exactly the real meaning of them. 
Now all I have to 
do is sit and wait to receive others revelations about my 
life but I'm certain 
I found my truth I was looking for so long in my life." She  
still there lying 
on the couch, with the book in her hands, trembling, smiling, 
experiencing 
this new revelation. She wouldn't move until she could take 
all she can from 
that moment to dominate the situation again.

Footsteps on the doors coming towards her. It was her mother, 
she was getting 
worried 'cause it has been almost four hours that Dana was 
alone in that room.

"Honey, are you ok?" 

She opened her eyes, her face was red and full of tears, her 
hands holding the 
book shaking and she nodded.

"What is this all about, Dana?"
She cleaned her face with her hands and answer: 

"It's all I search through these six years, the real truth. 
Our truth. He told 
me the story of his life, our life after I came to it. He 
loves me, Mom"

Her mom smiled at her. " I know, darling."  She reached for 
her hand " and 
what happens now?"

"I have to see him, it's my turn. I need to tell him how I 
feel what he means 
to me. But first, I need to take a shower to get the courage 
I'm going to 
need."

"Right, so go Dana. I'm praying for you." Dana smiled and got 
to the shower.         
 
"Dana? Are you finishing ?" She heard her mom's voice coming 
from the other 
room. She sighed. 

 "I don't know what wear." She left the bathroom with her 
robe "Did you ever 
expected to see me like this?" * just like a teenager girl 
nervous while is 
getting ready for her first date.* 

"Of course, it's natural when you're going on a date with 
your perfect man."

"Mom, it's not a date! It's probably the most important 
moment of my life. 
I'll expose myself to someone who – God damn it – knows me 
too well. . ." 

"Just be yourself. Don't decide to change, not now. Be the 
same woman he fell 
in love with. When you were ready, go to the kitchen to eat 
something. Oh! 
Your brother asked why you didn't have lunch with us, I said 
you were 
sleeping. He went to visit Tara's parents so he won't bother 
you now." And she 
left.

Few minutes later and she was ready to go wearing black 
pants, the blouse he 
gave her and a blazer. Her hair was dry and combed as 
usually, lipstick, her 
purse and she went to the kitchen.
"You're beautiful! He'll love you. Here, sit and eat now." 

"You're amazing, Mom. It's the same clothes I wear every 
day." She sat and 
started to eat the piece of turkey and a salad.

"Dana, you are different. First, you know exactly what you 
want. Second, 
you're wearing the pale pink blouse he gave you; Third and 
not less important, 
you are happy. The sadness in your eyes gone away and all I 
see is happiness 
living there."

She finished "Thanks, Mom." She kissed her mother and left.

During the way she felt so fine, no worries, no regrets, no 
thinking. Now, all 
she wanted is too feel the wind and listen to the songs on 
the radio. And 
suddenly, the radio started to play na old ballad from Don 
McLean: 

"And I love you so
  People ask me how
  How I lived till now 
  I tell them I don't know 
  I guess they understand 
  How lonely life has been 
  But life began again 
  The day you took my hand 
  Yes I know how lonely life can be 
  The shadows follow me 
  And the night won't set me free 
  But I don't let the evening get me down 
  Now that you're around with me . . ."

She knew that song describe both of them, how they felt. A 
tear of happiness 
felt from her eye. 


Fox Mulder's Apartment 
7 a. m.

She walked through the hallway until his door * Relax, Dana. 
Take a deep 
breath and prepare yourself 'cause everything you've always 
wanted is behind 
that door.* She took her key and pushed the door. It seems 
very calm, the 
lights were off, he wasn't on the couch. She took a few more 
steps to the 
bedroom. There he was maybe taking a nap on his bed. Bed? He 
has a bed ? Well, 
that's good to something I'm planning for later, she chuckled 
as she took off 
her blazer.
Walking on her tiptoes she got to the bed. He's sleeping so 
peaceful! He was 
wearing only his boxes. God he's gorgeous, I forgot how 
handsome he is! I 
don't wanna wake him. She stood there on her foots for a 
while watching him. 
Then, she sat on the bed without make any sound, she could 
smell him and that 
was a wonderful after shave lotion, she began to pass her 
fingers on his face, 
his cheeks, his nose, his jaw, she took the few hair from his 
forehead, she 
was spending each second she had to appreciate and join the 
time. Now, she was 
looking at his mouth  she passed her thumb to feel it, she 
could see a lack of 
smile appearing on the corner of his mouth. And she gave him 
a soft kiss. 

He was sleeping really but the kiss made him speak "Sculleey. 
. ."

She smiled as she heard it. Then, she whispered in his ears 
"Mulder. . ." He 
opened his eyes.

"Good Night, lazy boy." She said and smiled.

* God! What a smile!* "Scully, what are you doing here?" He 
sat on the bed 
searching for a T-shirt. She caught his hand. 

"You don't have to do it, please. I like it that way." 

"You do?" She nodded. 

"Mulder, you know why I'm here but let me say everything I 
have to say."

"You don't have to."

"Yes, I have I want to. Please promise you won't interrupt 
me." 

He smiled and nodded "Promise"

"When I left your apartment yesterday, I thought I will never 
have what I want 
and it hurt like hell. My mother asked what was wrong and for 
the first time I 
let it out and I told my story to her. How you affected my 
life since the 
first day I saw you and how I did to hide my feelings from 
you. She told me to 
take my chance 'cause she knew you love me. And I told her 
the most intimate 
moments of my life, the kiss that never happened, the jealous 
crises, 
everything. I made up my mind and already have decided to 
come here and tell 
you the same thing but I was expecting that gift, no Mulder. 
God, do you have 
any idea of what you do to me every time you touch me? Do you 
know how I feel 
when I see you in danger? Do you know how I felt when I was 
reading that book? 
She stopped to get some air and he was opening his mouth to 
say something but 
she put her fingers on his mouth, not allow him.

"Mulder, that moment I felt alive, I felt love, fear, pain, 
but mostly I could 
feel happiness and I cried, cried. I'm sorry – she was crying 
now- I let you 
suffer, to build this walls between us and I'm sorry I though 
you were under 
medication when you said you loved me. But, now I'm here to 
change it." She 
took a deep breath, rise his face to look directly in his 
eyes and spoke the 
magical words

"I love you, Fox Mulder always loved you and I'll for the 
rest of my life." 

"Oh, Scully" was all he could say and their mouths got 
together in a long 
tender kiss. 

 The End

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