Title: The Right Way
Author: Alice J. Foster
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Rating: PG or PG-13
Classification: Romance, Vignette
Keywords: MSR
Spoilers: post-ep for all things and a couple mentions for 
other episodes.
Disclaimer: They do not belong to me. If they did they would 
be romantically 
and sexually together for a long long time. Anyway, they 
belong to CC, 1013, 
FOX, etc. I also believe that they belong to the cast and 
crew that make the 
show possible and mostly to DD and GA.
Notes: I just wanted to say that even though I haven't 
watched all things 
yet (I live in Brazil and this week episode was Orison) I 
have read 
everything about it, seen all possible pictures, seen lots of 
videos and 
cried for not being able to watch it 'till July. I hope I 
have been accurate 
on what I wrote.

Summary: Scully thinks about the changes in her relationship 
with Mulder, 
the past, the present and the future.





*******

I wake up lying next to Mulder's form.

I am just feeling a new sense of confidence in my life. Like 
if I had 
regained my trust in the future.

I knew for a long time that I loved Mulder. I don't know 
since when, but it 
has been a long time. I started realizing that I was in love 
with him only 
during the Diana's return.Not that I admit it to myself right 
away. It was 
always hard for me to talk about my feelings and even admit 
them to myself.

The first night Mulder and I made love was after his neighbor 
tried to kill 
me. I was so miserable and being close to Mulder was the only 
thing that 
made me feel better.

It was when I really admitted to myself that I was in love 
with him.

I think that Mulder knows that I'm not good about talking 
about my feelings. 
And he knows that I try. I've only said that I loved him a 
couple times, but 
I know that he remeber those moments and loves each on of 
them like if I had 
said it a million times. He once told me that he likes 
listening to it but 
he likes most when my eyes tell him that and that my eyes are 
constantly 
telling him that now.

My mind returns to the date. Seeing Daniel again was so 
important for me. It 
only made me realize that this is where I should be for the 
rest of my life.
At Mulder's side.

I let myself get up and I pick some of my clothes and head to 
Mulder's 
bathroom. I have to go to work today and I'm happy that 
Mulder will be 
there.

After I saw Daniel in that hospital I entertained the thought 
of how my life 
would be if I had not joined the FBI.

Maybe my sister and Ahab would be still alive. I wouldn't 
have been taken. 
Maybe I would be married to Daniel or some other man and I 
would probably 
have children and a nice home. But I wouldn't be happy. Not 
like I am now.

Since I was a kid I always liked a challenge. That's why I 
chose  Med 
school. That's why I've joined the FBI. That's why I dated 
Jack Willis. I 
didn't love him. I liked spending time with him, but he 
started doing things 
I didn't liked. He never treated me like Mulder. He never 
treated me like an 
equal. I was his little student and he thought that he could 
control me. I 
never liked being controlled.

All my other siblings were afraid of Ahab. He just fascinated 
me. He became 
the most important role inmy life, tied with my mother. 
That's why I just 
need their approaval. Ahab was hurt when I decided to join 
the FBI. He knew 
that it was a dangerous life. Somehow I was just following 
his steps. Our 
family life was never easy. Always moving. But mom always 
tried to make 
things easy. I used to tell her most of things. Except things 
with boys. I 
reserved that for Missy. But I can talk to her about anything 
that I want. 
She was so happy when I told her about Mulder and me. She 
said that after so 
much pain, I needed something good in my life. And she 
considers Mulder a 
son. She doesn't like to fight with her kids, but when my 
cancer went in 
remission and Bill didn't want to allow Mulder to stay the 
night instead of 
him or mom, she said that he should just leave and shut up. 
That he should 
be thankful to Mulder and that I had a partner like him

I remember my cancer. Every time I am loosing control of 
things I do 
something wild. I remember my tatoo. I remember Ed Jerse. I 
slept with him 
because I wanted to control something in my life. I wanted to 
do something 
just because it was in my mind. And because I wanted to stop 
thinking about 
my cancer and how Mulder sent me to Philladelphia without 
him. I was happy 
that he trusted me with the X-Files but I was so pissed at 
him for leaving 
for Graceland and just assuming that I was supposed to do 
what he said so. 
Like I said, I need control. Not exactly be completely in 
charge, but at 
least share the control, like we are sharing the control of 
our lives now, 
even if it's just for awhile.

When Mulder was sick I stayed in Africa. I couldn't stay here 
and watch him 
in pain, asking for my help. Not when I couldn't do anything. 
When not even 
my prayers were helping. I couldn't face Diana. A person who 
I knew was one 
of Them, but I couldn't prove. When she died and I went to 
Mulder's 
apartment, I cried for her soul. She sure desrved to die, but 
I am not like 
that. I grew up learning that I should wish no evil, not even 
for my 
greatest enemy. I knew Mulder cared for her.

Yesterday I realized something. All my life lead me to where 
I am now. To 
Mulder. And most importantly to who I am now.

I don't want a husband that it's not Mulder. I don't even 
need to marry 
Mulder. I just want him with me for the rest of our lives. We 
are married. 
Our souls are married. I don't want kids with anyone but 
Mulder. I just want 
Mulder. I just want to wake up and find him there for me for 
the rest of my 
life. He told me that he has my eggs in criogeny in a lab 
somewhere. 
Someday, if our lives get close to safe we'll try. Together.

I am finished dressing. *I'm sorry Mulder, but I need to do 
somthing.* I 
silently tell him. I unset his alarm and leave. I'll call him 
later when he 
needs to wake up.

I take one last look before I leave. After we became lovers 
he always sleeps 
trough the night when I'm here and he is trying to stop 
sleeping in the 
couch. Except when I'm with  him there. I smile at that 
thought again.I 
retrieve my jacket and let memories flood me again. We have 
made love in 
that couch a couple times. And also in his shower. My shower. 
My kitchen. 
Once in the office. After we had closed the case and ended 
our business day, 
f course. I love the way he makes me come. He knows when I 
want to make wild 
love and when I need it tender. There is no difference 
betwwen making love 
and having sex with Mulder. I need to stop thinking about 
that or I'll have 
a grin stamped in my face for the rest of the day.

I leave and close his door behind me.

******

I'm at the temple that I came yesterday.

The Catholic church has always meant a lot to me. But not as 
much as my 
faith. My faith in God. My faith in me. My faith in Mulder. 
My faith in us.

I came back here to clear my mind again. Yesterday, when I 
came here I 
decided to always keep on with Mulder's journey. Scratch 
that. Our journey. 
To never look back. Yesterday when I imagined my life without 
Mulder had 
been the last time I imagined something like that.. I 
realized that I 
wouldn't like one little thing in my life to be different. I 
need to make 
Mulder realize that. He always feels so guilty about 
everything that 
happened to me. But I wouldn't change. Every bad thing that 
happened to me 
helped me to become stronger. It helped me to have power to 
continue.

I know that it's the right thing to do and I'm back here to 
make sure. And I 
am 100% sure.

I have a feeling that Samantha is still alive. Even after 
last month events. 
I can't say how I have these feelings, but I do.

It's like the time that they said that Mulder was dead in New 
Mexico, but I 
knew that he wasn't.

I can't tell Mulder about these fellings for two reasons. 1. 
He will play 
skeptic only because I'm being a believer. 2. I don't him to 
be hurt about 
Samantha.

He probably doesn't know, but Samantha became one important 
role in my life 
too. Ever since the moment in our first case when he told me 
about her. I 
think it was because it was the first moment of mutual trust 
in our 
relationship.

I am leaving the temple and I'll head to my apartment because 
I need a new 
suit and new pantyhose after ruining mine last night. 
Actually Mulder ruined 
them.

I call him from my car.

"Hello." He answer still sleeply.

"Morning beautiful." It's the first thing that I say. I just 
love his voice 
in the morning.

"I've missed you, Scully. Where are you? I woke up and you 
weren't here."

"I had to come to a place. And I need a new suit."

"Why didn't you picked that one that you keep in my closet 
for emergencies?"

"Because I already used that one in last week *emergency*. 
Remember?  And I 
need new pantyhoses. After all you ruined mine last night."

"Yeah, I did, didn't I?". He chuckled in the other side of 
the line and I 
chuckled too. "But I'd rather if you had woke me up before 
you left."

"Mulder. I'm sorry, but it was 4am and you were sleeping so 
deeply."

"You're forgiven. Oh, and Scully?"

"Yes, Mulder."

"Bring a new change of suits for tonight, okay?"

"Sure, Mulder." She involuntarily grinned.

They both hung up. She knew that she has chosen the right 
way. And now she 
was sure that she and Mulder would walk away together in the 
same road. 
Ignoring all the exits and u-turns. They would reach their 
destiny together. 
The conclusion of their journey.


Fim
*********

Author's notes part 2: I've discussed this with my best 
friend for a long 
time and I believe that Mulder and Scully are together for 
awhile now. I 
don't know why but I have some feelings. I believe that the 
show is 
ambiguous. My friend came with the idea that they were 
together since 
Milagro. I'm not sure about that, but I used that idea in 
this fic. There 
are moments when they seem together and there are moments 
when they don't. 
I've watched Orison for several times now and what make me 
believe that they 
are togethe is the last scene. The intimacy within the way 
that Mulder 
enters her bedroom.  I could say million intimate moments but 
I know that if 
someone disagrees with me, he or she will also have million 
arguments to 
deny my *theory*. I think that what we have to do is to wait 
for CC's 
decision. Anyone who disagree or agree with me, please e-mail 
me.Anyone 
wanting to comment my fic, e-mail me. Anyone just wanting to 
tell me that 
they are addicted to X-Files, e-mail me. Anyway, e-mail me 
just to tell me 
how was your day....

Author's e-mail: alice_j_foster@hotmail.com